My New Life: Changes & Growth

If you don’t follow me on Twitter, you may have missed the news that my Dad passed away the beginning of December. Even now, it’s almost impossible for me to be typing these words. Let’s sum it up as…I was the epitome of a Daddy’s Girl and my life will never be the same.

Thus begins “My New Life.”

There are many ways to begin this post, but I will start by saying that I’m about to put my heart on this page. If you want to skip the sappy stuff, scroll down to my Games and take a look. If you want to know more about me…here ya go!

As of right now, and hopefully to change, I am a stay at home mom. My dad was my rock and now he is gone. I don’t have a set direction for my life and that makes it incredibly difficult. I thrive on lists and plans…I don’t have one.

So I throw myself into my bookish world where everything is comfortable. There are such amazing friends and fantastic conversations. I laugh and I connect with other adults. This is something a stay at home mom does not get to do very often! Oh the joys of adult conversation and happy distractions!

I’m seeking a purpose in 2018. I want something for myself. I want a task to keep me busy and keep my spirits up. If I’m not busy, I dwell on my loss.

Last summer, I started a Goodreads group called “OurLostLibrary.” It was a place to come together over books that people have forgotten about. I was so tired of trying to keep up with the new releases (all my OWN personal choice. No one told me I needed to do that) When I obtained cheap books at book sales, they weren’t new. They were a few years old and guess what? No one cared about those reviews. They went unnoticed. I felt discouraged. I knew there HAD to be other people like me; people who read books from book sales or from their local library. Books that weren’t NEW. I wanted to form a group so we could read each others reviews, be there for each other and recommend great affordable books! So I created the group.

Soon after its creation, I discovered booklice in my home. I’m not sure which “old” book brought them in but I was done. I won’t get into it. I can’t. Suffice it to say, I lost all of my books. OurLostLibrary got thrown to the side. I couldn’t promote books if I didn’t have any! I couldn’t show them on Bookstagram. I couldn’t tweet reviews if I wasn’t reading. It was heartbreaking. I worked so hard, we were picking up steam and it was gone before I knew it.

I tried to bring back OurLostLibrary, but people moved on. The excitement was gone. My brilliant idea was just a memory. I tweeted like crazy and posted games on Instagram. No dice.

So I move on. I decided I was going to get a Kindle. It’s the only thing I asked for for Christmas. “I’m going to get all of my books back!” I said. “I’m going to read like I’ve never read before. I’m not gonna let this set back stop me. OurLostLibrary will be BACK!”

My dad and I worked on finding the perfect Kindle for an affordable price. It was “our” thing. It was his Christmas gift to me. He never got to give me that gift. It was the hardest thing to receive Christmas morning. I’ll be honest, I wasn’t even sure I’d be able to use it. I did though. I knew he wanted to me have it and how excited we were. I knew he’d want me to read ALL THE BOOKS. So I read.

I have my Kindle and I am working to reestablish the bookshelf I once had. I brought OurLostLibrary back. I won’t give up. It’s much harder now. I still don’t have the ability to search my shelves, take pictures I was once able to take but I’m trying. I don’t have the internet capabilities to do my Booktube channel anymore…even though I wish I could every single day of the week. (My internet is from the stone age. I don’t even have wifi. It’s a mess and I’ll never be able to afford better. So I deal) Not having a channel, it makes it that much harder to promote. Oh man what it would be like to post new games on my channel each week! I miss it and appreciate those that have it,  so I won’t give up!

As part of my new journey, I created TWO games. My hope honestly is that something takes off. Whether that’s OurLostLibrary or one of my games, it doesn’t matter. I’m searching for a purpose. I want something to look forward to each day that’s just my own. I want to keep busy so I don’t dwell, as I said. If one of these blossoms into something bigger…I will have succeeded! I will have constant interactions with people and goals and plans! It’ll be glorious!

I want to help people. It’s part of who I am. Other people’s problems will sit with me and eat away at me until I can find a way to make it better. I’m not good at expressing that, so it comes off quiet or uncaring but believe me…I care. I know there are people with TONS of books on their shelves that they want to get through. I know there are small booktubers who just want one person to notice them. One big booktuber to RT their post and big things will happen…I’ve been there! Bloggers who just want someone to read the words they spent so long working on, only to get ignored. I’ve been there! The bookstagrammer who gets 5 Likes on a picture they slaved over all day long? Yes! I get you!

So I create games. It helps give me purpose and it helps me bond with people who are in the same boat as I am. Yes, that takes lots of Retweets and getting people to even notice those RTs but it’s worth it when it succeeds. If you’re gonna put in all the work, you might as well have FUN…so GAME ON!!!

 

*MY GAMES!!!!:

#FictionalDating is fast becoming my favorite game idea for 2018! I couldn’t be more excited! It’s a bookish game based off of the tv show, Love Connection. Here are the rules!

Step 1: CHOOSE 3 books that have been on your shelf for awhile.

Step 2: DATE THEM: Read a chapter from each book. How did they measure up?

Step 3: CHOOSE YOUR SOULMATE: Choose the book you want to complete and let us know how the “relationship” went aka a book review.

Use #FictionalDating @LetsBookAboutIt so I can Retweet and promote your content! (Also, so I can check it out!!! Hehe)

Booktubers, Bloggers, Instagram and even Twitter (if that’s the only form of social media you have J ) It’s for EVERYONE!

This game is PERFECT for members of OurLostLibrary! You can find us on Twitter and Instagram @OurLostLibrary. Come join us!! I run Follower Highlights, 10 Second Challenge (ask me if interested!!!), and Friday Games! Weekends are weekly recaps! We encourage you to share what you are reading and help you get those books off those shelves! We also have a GoodReads Group OurLostLibrary, come see! You could end up finding your new Favorite book!

 

*My Second Game is #CandyCoatedChallenge!!!

Yes, this is as yummy as it sounds!

1) Once a month, you will be given a delicious candy and its clue!

2) Find that candy in your local checkout (OR print a picture off of the candy)

3) Show everyone the books (and candy!!!) that match the given clue!

4) You can show 1-100 books for each clue! It’s up to you!

5) Make a video/blog post! Post on Instagram or Twitter. Show everyone that candy and the books inspired by it! Use #CandyCoatedChallenge and don’t forget to tag me so I can find you!!!

January’s Candy & Clue:

*Snickers: A book that makes you laugh. Think of a book that gave you a good “snicker” and tell us all about it!!

The last Monday of every month, I will give you the next months clue. This month, that will be the 22nd! I may even run Twitter Polls to determine the next candy, so keep watch!!!

 

If you are interested in any of the things mentioned in this post, please let me know. It really boosts my spirits to see people interested in things that I’m passionate about. If you participate at all, PLEASE tag me and let me know! I really want to make sure that I see your content! Retweet as much as you can! This blog is tiny and barely sees any traffic. My tweets tend to disappear in the abyss that is called a Timeline lol So, ANY retweets no matter how many followers you have…well it puts eyes on this. Even if that’s one set of eyes lol it’s a set, right??? Thank you!!!

Also, thank you for reading all of this. I haven’t blogged in awhile and I had so much to say! Yikes! You deserve a medal! Lol You are amazing and I appreciate you! Thank you again!

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